sigh. i hate this. i'm so miserable. i keep running from one place to another. people are astounded by how full my schedule is. i mean, fine. a lot of it was my own choice, but puh-leeze. it's rather annoying that no one understands. today a senior called called. it got me started. i didn't know how i'd address him. i picked up the phone and guess what? it turned out to be about telling me that i didn't make it as a councillor. i hate myself. and my dad was like, go ask em what's wrong why don't you? and make a bigger laughing stock of myself? yeah right. btw, i'm so totally over him. not a chance. i mean. yeah. definately not a chance. well a tiny one. look, i liked him a while ago a lot and then it wore out. and the thing is it wore off. then came back like an anvil from the sky. then wore off again. nothing big. except my first crush. or maybe im just plain nuts. anyway, i'm going to america soon. with my dad. it'll be so friggin cool. for a while. but i'll be back soon. i wish not. anyway, good nite to me and my confused self. good night everyone.
lets believe togetther[6:02 AM]
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