sigh. i hate this. i'm so miserable. i keep running from one place to another. people are astounded by how full my schedule is. i mean, fine. a lot of it was my own choice, but puh-leeze. it's rather annoying that no one understands. today a senior called called. it got me started. i didn't know how i'd address him. i picked up the phone and guess what? it turned out to be about telling me that i didn't make it as a councillor. i hate myself. and my dad was like, go ask em what's wrong why don't you? and make a bigger laughing stock of myself? yeah right. btw, i'm so totally over him. not a chance. i mean. yeah. definately not a chance. well a tiny one. look, i liked him a while ago a lot and then it wore out. and the thing is it wore off. then came back like an anvil from the sky. then wore off again. nothing big. except my first crush. or maybe im just plain nuts. anyway, i'm going to america soon. with my dad. it'll be so friggin cool. for a while. but i'll be back soon. i wish not. anyway, good nite to me and my confused self. good night everyone.
lets believe togetther[6:02 AM]
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alright. as i was saying. im feeling so depressed today. so much for feeling better. i swear. anyway, i came up with a topic for thought today. what is sunlight? (don't tell me. light.) what defines sunlight? what would sunlight be, without a comparison to the dark? would sunshine be defined as good if dark wasn't defined as bad? it makes you wonder. if one definition depends on another while the oher on the first, who's to say what's right? if there was no beginning, will there be an end? if you stare at this for a while, it'll get to you. also, check out Plato's Cave. it's cool. very. it kindof disturbs me that we're so small. fine, i'm repeating words of the ancients, but saying them still holds magic. we're so so so small... go watch this. its nice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nroo-i8t8vg
kay. gtg now. bb.
quote for today: Maybe our stars are unanimously tired...
lets believe togetther[12:39 AM]
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